Here I am, 5 months into treatment for, well, I’m actually not too sure anymore, still haven’t been able to work out, still can’t have some drinks with my buddies while watching football, and still don’t feel great. I’ve been through some serious shit lately if you haven’t heard. If you have no idea what I’m talking about, here’s the short version. I went down to Cancun in April and contracted what I believe to be parasites. That’s what the doctors think it is, that’s what I think it is, but no matter how many rounds of treatment I go through, I continue to relapse. I will feel great for a week or two after I finish up with a treatment, and then all of the sudden symptoms hit me again like a freight train. It’s like a vicious cycle that keeps repeating itself. I feel spaced out, dizzy, extremely sick with very bad breathing problems and neck pain when it happens. I have told many people this already, but even though I’ve been through some serious crap in my life to this point, there is nothing that has been more challenging mentally and physically than what I’m going through now.
My life revolves around fitness. Hell, that’s my job. I’m a Beachbody Coach and have been doing this for 7 years now. It’s also my passion. There is nothing greater than being able to wake up in the morning and help someone who needs me, needs that additional support, needs someone to guide them so that they can make a positive change in their life. It’s been incredible. And I love lifting. Going to the gym and throwing some weights around has been my therapy for years now, going all the way back to my teens. When things go wrong, I go to the gym and let it all out there. Working out daily has become a habit, a part of my normal routine. It’s something that I love to do. I want to be able to take care of myself that way, but I can’t do that now. Instead, I’m sidelined. I feel weak. My strength is gone, and my body feels beat down from whatever I’m dealing with. On top of that, I’m a very social guy. I love going out on Saturday nights with my wife and friends, having a few Jack and Coke’s and watch the fights or football games that are on. That’s what we do, but lately I can’t.
When suddenly your entire life and routine is forced to change like it has for mine, it’s not an easy thing to deal with. The way I see it I have two options. I can sit here and feel sorry for myself, bitch about how bad things are, let it beat me down mentally, sit on the couch and become depressed, or I can choose to accept it, deal with it, adjust, and someway somehow turn all of this into a positive. If you know me, you already know which one I’ve chosen. I thank the good Lord above that I was introduced to “The Magic of Thinking Big” because it taught me how to deal with tough situations like this. But let me just tell you, staying positive throughout all of this has been challenging. It’s hard to stay positive when I can’t focus because of terrible brain fog. It got so bad at some points that I couldn’t even type or speak properly. It’s hard to stay positive when my entire life has been disrupted. It’s hard to stay positive when I feel extremely sick for days at a time. It’s hard to stay positive when I have no idea when all of this will end. But guess what, I’m doing everything I can to stay positive. At the end of the day, I have a responsibility. People need me. My customers need my help, my Coaches need my leadership. I can’t sit there and sulk in my sorrows and issues while there are others relying on me. Wouldn’t that make me selfish? Yes, yes it would. That’s not me, that’s not who I am.
Let me just tell you something. We all go through things. This isn’t the first time I have dealt with a tough situation like this. Back in 2009 I was thousands of dollars in debt, could barely afford my rent, and couldn’t support my family properly. We had to use government support to purchase formula for our daughter because I wasn’t making enough to do so. We were living in a tiny one bedroom apartment and sleeping on the couch so that Maddie could sleep in the only room. Talk about hard times. Things were tough, sure, but I stayed positive. I knew the potential I had with the Beachbody Business, and because I stayed positive and didn’t let any of that shit hold me back, I was able to accomplish something incredible. Now I am able to share my story with others and help them realize that no matter what type of situation they’re currently in, you can always make a choice to change. But understand that change can never happen without a positive mindset. If you struggle with staying positive, read that book I recommended above and apply what you learn on a daily basis. You won’t believe how quickly your life will turn around once you do so.
So yeah, I’m going through a lot of stuff right now. And yeah, I’m still trying to figure it all out. But just like with everything else I have dealt with, I know that I’m going through this for a reason. I might not know that reason yet, but I will in time. Maybe it’s to help those who are dealing with parasites? I don’t know. Possibly. But whenever I start to get down, I remember all of those that are relying on me; I remember that there is some knowledge that I will gain from this that I can pass forward and help others. I can’t let this defeat me and I won’t. I am strong. I will continue to stay strong. I WILL get my health back! I WILL become stronger than I’ve ever been! You just watch.